Am I doing something right this time?

I don't want to let this possibility pass away. What's worse: trying and failing, or passing up the chance twice and, ultimately, still failing? Especially when there was a good chance both times that if could have gone well, had I been bolder. I'll try. I'll make sure to speak this time.

In other news, I'm closing up on my best friend. I don't know how I'm doing that. I don't want him to know. I don't want him to judge me, because I know what I'm doing. (And that's what he's said to me [again and again and again] in similar matters, and of course I don't believe him, and with the additional leverage he has in my case, I don't stand a chance.) I've beat around the bush just to give him the chance to ask me for this matter, but he didn't take the bait, and I don't think it matters. Others know. They'll keep me (and the other) from doing anything too stupid.